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hellish August 16, 2011
This day has been personal and professional hell since about 5:00 this morning.
Everything--big or small, public or private--that could go wrong, has gone
wrong.
The two biggies:
Found out my dear "brother-in-law-slash-best-friend" is in the hospital with
severe chest pains; they are trying to rule out heart attack.
Then talked to my brother, and found out that my nephew just got diagnosed
with a genetic issue called "Common Variable Immune Deficiency". He has
had this since he was born, but JUST got the diagnosis--it only took 20 years.
It took a severe health crisis a couple months ago to finally start on the path to
getting some answers. And apparently, it's a blooming miracle we didn't lose
him from an infection at some point before now.
7 months ago, my answer to this horrible morning would be "I need a
cigarette".
I have at least gotten to the point where I don't want to smoke just because I'm stressed. I've gotten it through my thick skull--finally--that "I need a cigarette" isn't an answer to what's going on, and that doing something to make myself sick isn't going make my B-I-L or my nephew well.
So...progress, I guess.
But not much, because I still don't know how to handle this shit.
Reading:Hobby--"The Husbands of Edith" (1908), by George Barr McCutcheon.
"My Friend, The Chauffeur" (1905), by A.M. and C.N. WIlliamson.
Listening: The Who
Surfing:
At Random:
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